Always Something

I am not doing well.

I started taking my new medication, even though I knew the dosage was too low and I would probably feel crappy.   I didn’t expect to feel so bad I could hardly function.

I felt like I’d spent days lifting heavy boxes.  My entire body ached and I was so tired I could barely move.  I would do something like unload the dishwasher, and then I was so painfully exhausted, I couldn’t even manage to put the dirty dishes in and I needed a nap for 4 hours.

Work?  Nope.  The beauty of freelancing: I don’t need to use any sick days, but I don’t make any money if I don’t do any work.

I went to see my doctor and he ordered a blood test.  I dragged myself around like a zombie for another week (during which time he didn’t bother to call me with my results) and then dragged myself back into his office to have him casually tell me “oh yeah, your TSH is over 12.”  (Somewhere between 1 and 2 is normal.  Over 3 is considered hypothyroid by the AACE.)

He decided to triple my medication, to 1 1/2 grains (90mg) from 1/2 grain (30mg), which is the lowest possible dose you can take.  For reference, most people would be taking 3-5 grains.  But it’s a start, and I felt AMAZING.  On Thursday, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday I felt like a normal person.  I stayed awake for the entire day!  I went out!  I cleaned my house!

On Monday, I needed a nap by 5pm.  Tuesday, started to feel that all-over body ache.  Wednesday, I went to yoga class and I spent half of the class LYING ON MY MAT IN TEARS (oh yes) because I had no energy, I was shaking and off-balance, and I had no strength to do most of the poses.

I feel like I’ve wasted so much of my life with this garbage.  Hopefully it will be over soon, because I am seeing my new doctor in EIGHT DAYS.


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