At 6:30pm on Friday I was sitting at my desk, singing along to Christmas music, just having finished creating and ordering a bunch of Christmas presents, after a long day of laundry, chores, and running errands. And I suddenly realized… hey, it’s 6:30pm and I’M STILL AWAKE. Not one single nap all day!
It feels like my energy is increasing every day. I suspect it’s at least partially because I’ve been actually putting effort into what I eat. (Also, Vitamix.)
I’ve been really trying to pull myself out of the vicious cycle I mentioned a few days ago. Not only that, I’m actually getting excited about being in the kitchen and preparing food again. I’m not eating the same 3-4 things because I’m too tired to think of and/or prepare anything else. Or worse, skipping meals because I just don’t feel like making food.
On Friday night, I went to the Movember gala in Toronto with some friends.
I only had one small drink and we left early (11pm-ish), but I wasn’t in bed until around 1:30am. I could hardly get out of bed on Saturday. I was WRECKED. My doctor told me the most important thing I need to do is go to bed, get up, and have meals at the same time every day. That’s what I was doing all week, and it was working. It’s amazing how throwing off my schedule by a few hours completely undid everything.
All day yesterday, I dragged myself around like a zombie. It felt like all of my limbs were too heavy for my body and I just wanted to go to bed and sleep for the whole day.
And I couldn’t think of anything to make in my Vitamix aside from my morning smoothie that didn’t involve a walk to the grocery store for ingredients. I did make apple sauce because I needed some for a recipe.
Apples in a blender. That doesn’t count. (Plus I ended up using store bought applesauce in my recipe anyway.) So, no Vitamix recipe yesterday. I suck.
Speaking of recipes, ugh.
I have Erin McKenna’s original cookbook as well, and I’m really sad to admit that I haven’t been overly impressed with either. I bought them because there are such rave reviews about the bakery, and the pictures in the books are AMAZING (I’m shallow and easily distracted by pretty things), but so far I’ve made a handful of things and none of them have turned out. I don’t know if it’s because I suck at baking (although, as of today, 56% of Amazon reviews for her first book and 43% for the second book are 3 stars or lower, so it’s not just me), but it’s really frustrating, especially when ingredients are so expensive.
She uses a lot of coconut oil. A LOT. At $30 per jar and 3/4 cups of coconut oil in a recipe, that’s a lot of money to waste.
Anyway, Lori cookies. For Lori’s birthday.
The recipe was fairly easy, but it took more than a few tries to get the hang of cutting out shapes because the dough was so soft. Overall, everything seemed good until I took the cookies out of the oven. They just tasted gross. My boyfriend said “there’s no sweetness to them.” I thought they tasted like bland cardboard. He suggested I make a glaze, so I quickly whipped something up and dunked the cookies.
Then they just tasted like gross cookies covered in sugar, on top of looking like they were prepared by a five-year-old. At that point, there was no time left so I just brought them to the party anyway. The birthday girl herself said they tasted salty; her husband said they didn’t even taste like cookies. Everyone agreed they were not good.
I really wanted to try making cinnamon buns and ice cream cake and all sorts of things from her books, but I’m not sure if I should even bother. I am a big giant baby when it comes to being disappointed.
How do you deal with baking failures?